Musings: Pablo Fyre Escapar

If you’re honestly surprised that I’ve written an obituary for a rat, you really don’t know me very well, do you? But this isn’t about me. This is about the brief, but significant connection between a woman and a rat. Or, about the questions of how any one of us can assign value to any […]

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Musings: Eat

I don’t worship numbers anymore.  We measure food, measure clothes, measure bodies. I don’t measure my food, my clothes, my body. I estimate all numbers, except the amount of space, in days, since I last tried to erase my food to fit my clothes and control my body. I think I’ve earned this ability to […]

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Musings: Fields

Go with camping with your friends. Lose them. Find yourself in an empty field with tall, tall grass as the sun sets overhead and their voices fade. Turn your phone off. Breathe. Feel a sadness inside of you take hold, and feel it come out through the unsteadiness of your hands and the moisture of […]

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Musings: Me & My Cousins

I think of them all equally, but today I am thinking of two. They are a pair of sisters, and they are alike in many ways. They both have curly brown hair and kind brown eyes. They are like their mother in similar ways, and different from her in similar ways. They are also like […]

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Musings: WCW

“Oh. Your son looks more like you.” The speaker gets the unique opportunity to swallow her words in the face of being disproved as my mother and I react in the exact same manner- beautiful faces twisting into an expression of complete derision. The speaker falters and walks away. My mother and I rant about […]

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Musings: Maidenhood

There was a library that existed underground. I remember climbing down flights of stairs, the sunlight from the upper levels being replaced by electric lights as I descended. There was an area adjacent to the structure that had been cleared so that sunlight could filter in through the East side. I miss that place. In […]

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Musings: Siblings

I have a few, but I know one. We grew together, regressed together, regretted together, grew together. In my mind, I remember his small face and smaller body, his perfect chocolate curls and bright cinnamon eyes. I remember all of the kindnesses, all of the ways he was so much like our mother. The beauty, […]

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Vices Episode 1: Wrath

I know what I do when I want to love you. I know how to send you sweet nothings and paint pictures of imagination and wordy impressions of physical joy. I know how to look at the numbers remaining with a fretful wistfulness. I know how to weave this into the tapestry of our fate […]

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Virtues Episode 2: Charity

Charity, noun. 1. generous actions or donations to aid the poor, ill, or helpless 2. something given to a person or persons in need; alms 3. a charitable act or work. 4. a charitable fund, foundation, or institution 5. benevolent feeling, especially toward those in need or in disfavor 6. leniency in judging others; forbearance […]

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Virtues Episode 1: Patience

Patience, noun. 1. the quality of being patient, as the bearing of provocation, annoyance, misfortune, or pain, without complaint, loss of temper, irritation, or the like. 2. an ability or willingness to suppress restlessness or annoyance when confronted with delay 3. quiet, steady perseverance; even-tempered care; diligence –, 9/8/2017 You are 235 days away […]

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